Where the Pattern Began 🔎

Something I Left Unfinished

You’re probably wondering why I blocked you out of nowhere, maybe thinking I’m still overreacting like I used to 10 years ago. Or maybe your ego has convinced you that I’m still in love with you.

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In fact, did I ever tell you that you kept showing up in my dreams while I wasn’t even consciously thinking of you? Especially every time I started getting closer to somebody, you showed up there, in my dreams, with your potentials that we couldn’t live and my expectations that made you you.

I kept asking myself: am I cheating? Why is he showing up when I wasn’t even thinking about him?

Until one day I woke up with teary eyes, heavy-hearted. That was the day I realized there are unresolved feelings with you I couldn’t fully figure out.

Yes, I thought maybe it was just that you reminded me of how I should be loved. I kept proving myself to everyone I met, subconsciously, especially when I saw them leaving .. like I was screaming inside, “Please don’t leave me. I’m worthy of this love.”

But I barely said it with words; only with actions. Following the same pattern.

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Your wound was hidden somewhere in the back of my mind, screaming and bleeding, but I was in denial. It started to show up in every place I was beginning to get familiar with.

It’s funny how low-key we think we’ve gotten over a situation, when in fact it’s buried somewhere, hidden in our black box — our subconscious mind.

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In my next writings, I’ll be talking about self-love, relationships, finding the missing pieces, and the power of the subconscious mind.

If you’re a teenager or in your early twenties, well, this is your sign to make better decisions. Avoid falling in love with the wrong ones that will cost you years of your life. Develop your character before getting to know someone new, it will add 100% value to your life.

And if you’re in your late twenties or older this might be your sign to pause and ask yourself: are you truly healing, or just moving on?

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Welcome to my many world.

Sending hugs 🫂